Unexpected

Before I knew it we were suddenly talking about my relationship that recently ended over the dinner table with 3 guys in their early 20's, their 19 year old sister, their parents, my parents and my sister. I had completely avoided telling my parents about my fiasco earlier this week, but I ended up telling the whole table almost everything that happened. Interesting enough though before I had to tell my dreaded story, my sister told her nightmare of a graduation and summer with her previous associate. And after her story, our friend told her confusing bad story about her mess of relationships. It was one of the most interesting dinner conversations I have ever had! All three of us girls seem to be unlucky in the guy department sAo far. It has just been hitting me the last few days that I didn't appriciate what I had till now it is gone. I miss my previous associate and best friends a lot but, I do not know if it could ever work out. My state of health has changed so much in my life that I can't control and it has ruined my relationship. I just wish I could be healthy and normal again, but it is going to be a long process of healing ahead of me filled with ups and downs. I'll post the picture of out gingerbread houses we made sometime soon. Peony and Elm

Pains

I had some of the worst pain I have ever had in my stomach today. Good thing I already had a doctors appointment! Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get better.

 Elm

Key of C

Jammed out with a few friends tonight! When the chord progression become automatic and the strum patterns have that perfect blend, that is when real music is made. I rocked out to some Fleet Foxes later, which was so awesome to play and sing! Like a Salior and his compass, without music I would be lost at sea.

Peony

Flurries

Got to work today at the Art Gallery/Boutique which was so busy with people coming in. There were two sets of dads and their two sons looking for gift for their wives/moms, it was so cute. At the shop today, I learned how to write a frame order. I getting one step closer to doing more framing at the shop, wohoo. Finding a job you love to do makes it no longer seem like work, just getting payed for having fun. That is how it is for me at the shop; I could work there for the rest of my life and be just as content as I was today. While I was working I glanced out the window and saw flurries falling; they were so beautiful and a reminder of Winter and Christmas. 

The live Nativity was also tonight, .and as I sang tonight in front of the crowd tonight I thought how incredible God is that he came into this world in a dirty manger, with smelly sheep and donkeys. Then he died on the cross for us, sinners. It shows Gods incredible love. 

Peony

Bethlehem

After I got what I wanted, I realized it was the last thing I wanted. 

Tonight I lived in Bethlehem and sold vegetables to people from my community in a live Nativity that my church was having. I was so awesome to see the peoples faces when they saw Roman soldiers, Beggars, Harletts, Tent makers, Basket weavers, Shepard, Angels, Wise Men, Mary, Joesph, and Jesus. He is the reason for the season.  

Elm

Ivy

Friendship

Peony

Fisher

“Your decision to be, have and do something out of ordinary entails facing difficulties that are out of the ordinary as well. Sometimes your greatest asset is simply your ability to stay with it longer than anyone else.” -Brian Tracy

Health and well being has become the focus of my life. Yet, it has been like a tornado in a town changing almost every part of my life from education, eating, the way I think, friendships, and most recently relationships. I feel like a fishermen throwing his line into the sea, risking his time and money on a gamble at luck to get a catch. I've  thrown all my lines out to sea and now I must wait.

Peony

Peony at its Finest

Almond flour pancakes, that were more like dry biscuits than the intended fluffy pancakes, were my breakfast.

I fooled around on my Mandolin, and jammed out to some Simon & Garfunkel and Josh Rouse which was inspiring. I ventured to a local cafe/coffee shop with a friend, which was dandy. It was confirmed today that black coffee is just lovely and hits the spot every time. 

Christmas is fast approaching which is partly freighting and partly wonderful. With so much to knit and crochet I feel like Santa's elf's trying to get everything done before Christmas. There is hope though because after standing in the cold for about 2 hours with my fingers turning into miniature glaciers, I am finally able to be home with a hot cup of Lady Grey Tea in my hand ready to knit. 

Life doesn't get much better than good Music, 80's Sweaters, Christmas around the corner and, Hot Tea. 

Peony

Elm

Curiosity causes pondering that results in over-thinking which leads to worrying that harvests stress which develops into depression

Elm

Good Talk

I had lunch with my a friends Mom and my best friend at a local eatery. We got salad and talked about what is going on in our worlds. Seeing someone else's views is good but hard. I always have to remember that God is in control and has a plan for my life. 

Jeremiah 29:11 

Peony

First Day

Today, is my first official day of cyber school, so I thought I should keep a blog of my adventures! My computer, printer, headphones came but some of my books have yet to arrive. The online databases that house my grades, classes, assignments, etc. are quite confusing and I have yet to conquer them. But, I have a few textbooks to start working on with step-by-step daily lesson plans. The Webcam on my newly acquired school computer has decided not to work, to my dismay. But, I will try to upload at least one picture a day of of my travels.

Peony

Rose

A rose spritzed by the rain