Envelope for a ticket

It has been too long since I wrote on this blog, but I have been itching to write recently, which is just lovely. I do not know where to even begin. These past few months have been filled with so much learning, listening, disappointment, endurance, new opportunities, closed and opened doors, unbelievable joy, frustration, contentment, impatience, and all through this God's unfailing love. I feel I will have to write a few posts to explain everything that has been spinning in my world but I thought I would start with today, which is always a great place to start.
I turned to a new page today. This page was a little white envelope addressed to ENGLAND... yes the Great land of Britain. Inside was an application to attend a Bible school in...GERMANY, which is unbelievable. I have been thinking about applying for a we-bit now, but it never seemed like a reality. Yet, today I stood in my post office holding what seems like the train ticket to my future. Now it is probably just sitting in a pile in my post office, which is only a mile down the road, but to me it has already left town. And now comes the waiting for an inked reply that will give me my ticket to the train God has arranged for me to catch.

The past month God had taught me to be content. I realized how discontented I was in just about every part of my life. One day at work as I was ringing a man up I asked him how his day was, and normally people say "Good, and you?" and I would reply "Good", yet all this man said was "I woke up today"... Just ponder that for a second. It is truly awesome. This may sound crazy but I feel like he was an angel. To me that was so HUGE, because I was already pondering contentedness. The fact that he woke up was a blessing, why was I not just happy God woke me up each day? He does not have to give me a new day every morning, but that fact he does means he has a plan for my life. Ok, pause here for a second again. This is crazy, but every morning he gives me another day and that means he has a plan for me. Which is so sweet. Then I came across this verse that has really helped me. " The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand" Psalms 37:23-24. So there it is, God delights in every detail of my life. Thus, I should be content in those details, good and bad.

Stirring

I got back from a week vacation in Ocean City New Jersey with my family and some of Laurs friends from Colorado a bit ago. It was so awesome! While I was ther I started to read Passion and Purity and I have to say, it is sweet. It has got me thinking that I really need to focus on God and his will in my life rather than things of this earth. Our purpose in life is to glorify God and proclaim his name. Yet, why are we so wraped up in our own little worlds? We think about what we need and what we want when really we should be thinking, what does God need me to do and what God wants. I think about how comfortable we are here and it really irks me. We are so comfortable in our faith and just in daily life. We need to be challenged and we need to be on fire for God and have that urgency in life to share the Gospel to the ends of the earth! 

Turkey Burger

My lunch today!! Since I am on such a strict diet it is hard to find food that I can eat, but you just have to get creative and have fun with it. Food is one of the simple joys in life. 

So, today I worked for what seemed like hours and hours and I only completed three subjects in school. It is frustrating, but I try not to get my knickers in a knot. That is what I have been learning recently not to stress out as easy and just let things go. So far it has worked really well, and I have been feeling great!

Peony

Another milestone

So somehow being able to drive by myself has given me a feeling of great freedom and relief. After three failed attempts to pass my driving test I finally "aced" it. Wohoo It is crazy how fast life goes, I guess you could call today my D-day because I was dreaded yet dreamed about it daily. God once again is so good, all I could think during my test was "I can do all things through Chrst who Strenghtens me"! Later that night I went out to eat with family I am so close too, and it was awesome to be able to go to eat, and just to be with them! Life is good.

Peony

Love

Love, it is all around us, it is blasted through our old car speakers, it is seen by to two smooching people, it is showen by helping others, it has many facets, it has many ways the say it, it breaks all cultural barrier, it has no bounds, it makes people do crazy things, it determines weather a child will grow up to be happy and successful, it is our obession for fuzzy fur balls, it is our love for God, it is God's unfailing love for us, it is God.

Mamihlapinatapai

"A look shared by two people, each wishing that the other will offer something that they both desire but are unwilling to suggest or offer themselves"

-Mamihlapinatapai

Peony

Hats, shoes, scarves, attitudes too

The world of fashion is so peculiar, and interesting. The people, the clothing, the attitudes, the standards, the rush, everything about that world is so strange yet enticing to me. Going to another Fashion Show in the Big Apple has confirmed my love for fashion and it's crazy world. I am addicted.

Peony  

Sky

You may be just as surprised as I am to know that this picture is of the Philadelphia Art Museum, when I took it I wasn't expecting it to this beautiful. Beauty comes in unexpected ways. Thursday January 5th 2012

Peony

Universal

Went to the Museum today in Philly. I realized today that art has no language. When you look at a work of art, you sense the emotion that artist wanted to create just by their brush stokes or sculpting. Weather it be a unusual portrait, beautiful landscape, or simply two colors. Art is universal.

Peony  

Peony

Billy goats Gruff

Thought the grass was greener on the other side, now I am not so sure

Elm

Home

January 3rd 2012,

Well the Holidays have past and constant indulgence of sweets is unfortunately over. It is back to school and I spent the entire day silent, besides two phone calls that lasted approximately a minute each. I questioned whether I made the right choice today when I had this overwhelming feeling that I may never be able to talk again after being silent for 7-ish hours. :) Later in the Kitchen I committed a crime…I hate over half a batch of Shortbread cookies. I have a feeling that this law breaking business will become a habit.
While I was doing my health class today it was talking about healthy choices, along with the evils of drugs, alcohol, and sex that we all could recite in our sleep. Anyway, it was talking about achieving a state of well-being and striving for health in all areas of life that are spiritual, emotional, mental, physical, social, and environmental. I realized being “ill” affected all facets of my life and how stress contributed to all of it. The changes I have made recently have made an impact on my life. Life is an asteroid-field and you have dodge all the giant space rocks flying at your face.
On a happier note one of the best movies ever filmed is “You’ve got mail”. If you have never seen it I would highly advise it.

Peony