It has been too long since I wrote on this blog, but I have been itching to write recently, which is just lovely. I do not know where to even begin. These past few months have been filled with so much learning, listening, disappointment, endurance, new opportunities, closed and opened doors, unbelievable joy, frustration, contentment, impatience, and all through this God's unfailing love. I feel I will have to write a few posts to explain everything that has been spinning in my world but I thought I would start with today, which is always a great place to start.
I turned to a new page today. This page was a little white envelope addressed to ENGLAND... yes the Great land of Britain. Inside was an application to attend a Bible school in...GERMANY, which is unbelievable. I have been thinking about applying for a we-bit now, but it never seemed like a reality. Yet, today I stood in my post office holding what seems like the train ticket to my future. Now it is probably just sitting in a pile in my post office, which is only a mile down the road, but to me it has already left town. And now comes the waiting for an inked reply that will give me my ticket to the train God has arranged for me to catch.
The past month God had taught me to be content. I realized how discontented I was in just about every part of my life. One day at work as I was ringing a man up I asked him how his day was, and normally people say "Good, and you?" and I would reply "Good", yet all this man said was "I woke up today"... Just ponder that for a second. It is truly awesome. This may sound crazy but I feel like he was an angel. To me that was so HUGE, because I was already pondering contentedness. The fact that he woke up was a blessing, why was I not just happy God woke me up each day? He does not have to give me a new day every morning, but that fact he does means he has a plan for my life. Ok, pause here for a second again. This is crazy, but every morning he gives me another day and that means he has a plan for me. Which is so sweet. Then I came across this verse that has really helped me. " The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand" Psalms 37:23-24. So there it is, God delights in every detail of my life. Thus, I should be content in those details, good and bad.
